Not a Fan

of headaches and DMV's!! not seperately and certainly not together! especially a 90 minute wait all for naught! yikes!

Despite the Heat...

There's the smell of pignuts, dried brown leaves crumbling beneath my feet Acorns still wearing their caps

Today

as I was walking Ryan home from kindergarten, he somehow got on the topic of babies. a subject that had come up a few weeks ago when he informed me that his mom wanted another baby and just had to get a cell from his dad.

so anyway, ry says, "it's really easy if a girl wants a baby."
"it is?"
"yeah."
"well, what do you have to do?"
"well...a girl just has to..."
"...get a cell?"
"yeah, she just has to ask."
"she just has to ask her husband for a cell?"
"yeah. it's so easy!"
"it is?"
"yeah."
"but how does she get the cell?"
"well, it's amazing. it's just goes flying through the air. and then it goes right through her skin into her stomache. and then she makes her own cell too. and then she just waits like a month or ten weeks, and then she has a baby. and that's how it happens. i think (he giggles). i think that's how it happens..."
"well, that does sound very easy! so if i want a baby, all i have to do is ask keith for a cell?"
"yeah! but he might not wanbt to give you one."
"why?"
"because babies can make you really crazy! but do you want one?"
"well...i don't know. babies are a lot of work."
"yeah, but don't you love this little baby?" (and he touched his little ister amaia's head oh-so-gently).
"i do love this little baby!"
"me too. but i love her so much that sometimes i hurt her!" (he likes to hug her too tight).

anyway, so now you know...if you want a baby, all you have to do is ask!

Good Fings*

A visit to the Migyur Dorje stupa

Last weekend's fish release with Ralo Rinpoche's sangha

Sour cherry juice

Sun warmed watermelon

Perfect plums

*As in "Good fings" vs "Bad Fings" -Ajam Tulku (with his German accent)

Loving--In No Particular Order

Fresh figs!
A bitty baby girl who takes my glasses off, then gives me eskimo kisses
A small redheaded boy who's content to spend hours talking to me in a tree
Coffee (although K. says I'm developing a dreadful lifelong habit I must break!--no thanks to you Drew!)

More............

Circular rainbow gazers

Circular rainbow that appeared around the sun on the last day (after the group photo on the lawn)!

Gyangkhang Tulku

Retreat 2009

KK

the crew

my boys

more dizzy's room

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As Jizzy (the artist formerly known as Dizzy)

said to keith yesterday, "you're already thinking about your dismount?" and it's true
can i just let go all the thoughts of apartments and baltimore and work and money?
but the future creeps in
here in my mind
amidst chipmunks and clouds and sitting
in the tent in the temple in the hut
at the picnic table eating a cinnamon raisin bagel
while i check my email...............

I Hear Them

The deer thunder through the forest. I hear them blowing air through their noses--hidden behind the bushes. The doe chomps field grass, cocks her head to listen, and prances before Drew and I (he atop a haybale).

Thin Skin

like the see-through shell of a tiny snail. later still, something uncoiled inside--i'm splayed. not like a small bird hiding in long grass--can't find the edges. i'm making eggs. the peach grows golden, unnoticed by me.