Showing posts with label pharping. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pharping. Show all posts

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Teej!

I've been meaning to post this since I was in Nepal a few months ago!








       When the music first began, I was worried it would stop before I’d get a chance to document it. K and I were practising in our room. I was itching to finish and race out to the balcony to record this strange occurence. The music was like nothing I’d ever heard--it rose up from Bhanjang as though to the heavens--this blasting Nepali pop. Little did I know I had nothing to worry about, as the music marked the first day of Teej, beginning at 8AM the first day and not ending until the night of the third! Instead of worrying that the music would end, I soon began to worry about my sanity-or lack thereof-as just a handful of songs were roatated at an ear-splitting volume over the next few days--ultimately boring into my brain.
From what I’ve been able to glean, Teej is a Hindu festival for woman which lasts for three consecutive days. During this time, the men supposedly stay home and cook, and the women dress up and go to temples to pray to Shiva for a good husband and/or the health of their families. The married women dress in shimmering red saris accented with green, moving through the streets of Pharping en shimmering masse. In the evening, the women and girls gather together and dance (to said blaring music).
In Bhanjang, the little village down below Karma Chagme’s monastery, two enormous speakers had been set up in front of the shops in the dirt. They stood there, blasting their music through sun, fog and rain. It was the music from these speakers that I heard that first morning (and the next, and the next). Along with the addition of the speakers in Bhanjang, across the street below the school, a tent was set up next to a small shrine. Banners of triangular colored cloth crisscrossed the street.
In the morning, the music was the soundtrack to the villagers going about their daily routines--the women spreading cobs of bright yellow corn, husks and wet sheets on roofs; sitting in the sun combing their freshly washed, impossibly long black hair; dogs chasing small chickens; laundry hung to dry; men standing around.
Throughout the day, the tent slowly began to fill, first with jubilantly dancing little girls holding hands twirling in frilly dresses; then with more and more women, until evening when the tent became a mass of undulating red in the rain, while men and boys looked on.
Sitting on my bed, the music mixed with the sounds of the monastery: the blowing of horns, crashing of cymbals and thumping of drums by the young monks up in the temple. It mixed with the sound of K chanting along to a loudly playing recording of Penor Rinpoche and his monks chanting and playing instruments--resulting in the most horrific cacophony I had ever heard.
Even after K and I had threaded our way through the lush green fields, where dry cornstalks towered above us and rice grew to our waists, where white cranes flew and goatherds tended their goats, to the other side of the valley, we could still here the music! Even as we walked through the neighboring village of Drolod and climbed up scaffolding whose safety we questioned, to the top of the 118 foot Guru RInpoche statue being built, there was still the music’s echo.
      Last night, Teej ended with the women down in the tent singing and clapping out rhythms. What did Teej teach me? How lovely silence is! It made me miss the whirring of crickets, the cooing of pigeons, the occasional honk of a horn going down the mountain.






Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Remember

In front of Bhangang's internetWhen it wouldn't stop raining

Backwards Development Forum...Need I say more?







I kiss you.........



Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Nepal!

Not only does this truck believe in fair love, but the front bumper proclaimed, "I kiss you." Hmm...Keith, Dizzy, and I saw this after climbing off our bus from Pharping and walking into Kathmandu, due to the "jam."
On the roof of the bus.

Karma Chagme before a puja for the earthquake vicitims.


Goatherder. This man had a very naughty goat who chased after Marike and I, jumping high into the air as though doing the River Dance.




Near Guru Rinpoche's Yangleshod cave.



Dizzy waiting for Marike and I at Ravi's internet shop.











Dizzy in the field. Yes, I am his official photographer.



Women carrying rocks to build Khenpo Namdrol's Shitro mandala.







Monday, November 10, 2008

On My Walk To Town....

This is the field at the edge of town which functions as a dump/soccer field. ..

This is the path that takes me from where I live, by all the animals and dirtiest of kids demanding, "Give me..."

The oh so curious goat.






Sunday, November 9, 2008

More Pharping...

Those are marigold chains hanging from the awning of Pharping Fresh House--actually not so fresh! The bottled water from their fridge smells like throw up--but they do have decent toilet paper and occasionally saltines (a must for the endless varieties of stomach sickness)!



Keith offering a butter lamp outside Guru Rinpoche's Yangleshod cave (the spot where he attained enlightenment!).

Stupa at Karma Chagme's.



Drinking masala chai in Bhoudha.



View from my bedroom window (possibly Crazy Drunk Guy passed out)!



Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Our Tiny World

One of the shops in Pharping (where i buy buckets).

Our door (on the other side you will find the old monk spinning the prayer wheel from 3Am until 9PM).
Rice outside our house (before it was harvested the other day).


This is where we live--in the yellow building. Now, it's a while after lunch and so quiet--maybe loppon and tsering are still napping. Cook is whistling across the way. I hear damarus and bells. And crazy drunk guy talking loudly, and earlier, drumming and singing. It's still the festival today so the workers aren't here building the nunnery. So quiet. There's the cooing of pigeons. And the whir of insects. Shadows of prayer fags flutter upon the grass--shadows of birds flying overhead. Flower necklaces around men's necks as they ride motorcycles.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

These Days

I spend my time drinking cup after cup of sweet tea, perched on a stool overlooking the mountins, chatting with K and Loppon--learning bits and pieces of Tibetan. My whole body smiling in the sun.

K and I spend our afternoons exploring--walking from our place through the rice paddies over to Karma Chagme's gonpa--by chance meeting Karma Chagme--exploring the inside of his new temple, visiting the black stupa at Chatral Rinpoche's monastery and Guru rinpoche's Yangleshod cave, walking the main road down to Namkha Drimed's to catch the tail end of a lama dance.

In the morning I eat flat bread and bean curry--drinking salt tea, answering Lakpa's many questions about myself and America.

I do laundry, squattng over my bucket inthe bathroom, hang it on the roof in the sun as roosters crow.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Anything Really is Possible in Samsara or No I'm Not Good For Eating

Yesterday I was sitting in a circle of grass at the top of the rice paddies, writing the following:


the woman cutting the grass with a sickle. the wind. the bleating black goat. the long crazy bus horn. the chirping of crickets. the huge praying mantis. my wet hair drying in the sun. a slow headache brewing. the cook carrying squash from the garden, black soil clinging to it's fur. the women with shawls wrapped around their waists. the clothes I want made. children's voices echoing across the valley. and that goat. walking behind that running rooster on the shortcut to town this morning, a thin string trailing from it's leg. the furry chickens in the garbage, in the gutter. the lowing of cows. the hawks circling overhead. the wind. the sun. feeling a little sick. the dirty children. a girl washing at the outdoor spigot this morning. a leaking nose. the drums in the night. and the rustling of leaves. I need a plate. I need a cup. I need some dishsoap that's not a cake. I need some cake. I need some books. I need a movie. I need poetry. Two girls jumping rope with a chain. Am I catching a chill? My hair almost dry. All the pictures. Lakpa said his uncle's house was robbed one night when he slept at a relative's. The robber took everything--even the new underwear--leaving his old dirty ones in their place! Loppon said thieves dig up the sandalwood trees at Namdroling. I told how a robber crept through our house in the night. The clicking of the thresher? Avoiding milk tea making me sad. They're beating the ?stalks of ri...


So I wrote the above. Was in the middle of finishing that last sentence when BAM! something incredibly hard hit my head--so hard that the impact pushed the top half of my body forward. "What the fuck?" I yelled--pissed, thinking someone had thrown a rock at the back of my head--a big one. I quickly turned my head--no one there. I turned back around and saw a gigantic hawk flying a bit in front of me and immediately realized what had happened...


A giant hawk flew straight into my head. And it realy really hurt.


I don't think American hawks do this.


My head really fucking hurt. I decided I needed to go see Keith right away and as I walked to him--my head aching and burning--I imagined blood dripping down my hair. I mean, when a hawk divebombs your head, it really hurts. I can't emphasize this enough.


I burst into the Vajrakilaya shrineroom. "A hawk just flkew into my head!" I said.


"What?" Keith laughed.


"It just flew into my head!"


"That's great!" he said.


"Great? What are you talking about?!" I exclaimed.


"I think it's a good sign."


"A good sign!? How is it a good sign? It really hurt me! I just can't believe it!"


"Yeah, it's weird," he said and kept on with his writing. I, on the other hand, might have been in shock.


"Can you look at my head?" I asked. He gave it a cursory glance.


"Nothing," he replied. But it seemed to be hurting more and more with each passing minute and I really didn't think he understood the enormity of what had just happened! Keith kept writing and suddenly I was crying.


"What's wrong?" he asked.


"I'm really upset! A hawk just flew into my head and my head hurts! And also I just took a shower and washed my hair and now I have hawk germs!" I sobbed--perhaps a bit dramatically. But really, I do spend an inordiante amount of time here trying to keep myself, my clothes and my few possessions clean. And the last thing I needed was a hawk flying into my head. I really was distraught. I'd been having such a beautiful time sitting there writing in the sun. And then BAM! Like a ton of bricks slamming into my head. I felt like it was a metaphor for this whole trip...


But what really drove me to distraction was people's reactions to this incident. Soon after the tears, as K was taking me back to the room to my complaints of, "I'm lucky I didn't get whiplash!" and "I could've gotten a concussion from that thing!" we came upon Tsering and Lakpa. I told them what happned. But they didn't seem surprised--or impressed. "It thought you were something," Tsering sniffed, nonplussed. "Very brave bird," Lakpa commented.

"Brave bird!" I laughed. "I just can't believe it--have you ever heard of a hawk flying into someone's head before?"


"Birds of prey, you know?" Lakpa said. "Sometimes vultures, they take people's eyes."


"What!?" I squealed.


"When they're dead!" Keith laughed.


"No, alive. birds of prey, you know?" Lakpa said in his Indian accent, bobbling his head at me...

Thursday, October 23, 2008

The Whistle

As Maya showed us our room at Khenpo Namdrol's guesthouse for the first time, she handed us two large skeleton keys, cautioning us to always keep the door to our room locked, as well as the outside hallway door, AND the sliding red metal gate. "Hmm...that's a lot of locks!" we thought.

That night, Khenpo sent Lakpa over, the Nepali worker monk who speaks English and went to Catholic school, to our room to explain about which lights worked on the battery when the power was oof. Lakpa requested that we, "On," the porch light each evening so the night guard could see around our building. As the light is directly outide our window, we weren't too pleased, but "On," it we did. Lakpa reiterated that we must keep the doors and gate locked at all times, as our building was, "On the main road," he said, pointing to the small apth running next to our guesthouse and down through the rice paddys. "Many thieves," he said. "But don't worry, the night guard has a whistle."

Then, two days ago, Lakpa announced at dinner that he was moving onto our floor that night--to sleep in the kitchen and make sure robbers didn't take any supplies from the nunnery being built behind the guesthouse. "So you're going to stay up all night looking out the window?" I asked. He said that no, he could sleep.

After the first night, Lakpa reported there'd been no robbers. Then, this morning at breakfast when I asked how he'd slept last night, he said, "Very well thank you."

About fifteen minutes later he told me, "Oh, there were thieves last night."

"Thieves!?" what happned, I asked in surprise.

"There were three, but they ran away."

"Three? Trying to steal the rebar?" I asked.

"No, they broke into the temple!" he replied.

I'd heard the guard blowing his whistle in the night, but thought nothing of it as the guard blew his whistle a great deal each night. "To make sure the thieves know he's there. If they hear his whistle, they won't come," Lakpa had told me.

But come they did--jumping the gate, breaking the lock on the temple door, and scattering the mandala and it's pearls all over the floor. But then, the night guard whistled...and they ran away empty handed.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

This One Goes Out to My Fellow Retreater-ers

Everyone knows that it might be a few days or it might be a week, but soon enough, despite the prescence of His Holiness, despite the fields and the wildflowers, despite how happy I am to be there, Jenn needs to get away--go to town, go to Walmart--anything. Or you'll have a super sourpuss on your hands.

Likewise, here, as on retreat, I live on the edge of jewel-like fields of flowers, awaken and fall asleep to the sounds of dharma. But...

I also sleep on the hardest bed imagineable (upon K's examination of it today, it appears to be stuffed with some sort of woven grass), my pillow is a tiny camping sort as they seem not to make or sell bed pillows in Pharping. And just as I'm about to fall alseep each night, crazy drunk guy begins his obscenly loud yelling. Oh and don't forget the incessant nightly barking of dogs. At this point I plug my ears until the shouting ends (possibly hours later). Then, when I'm finally asleep, the three year retreatants begin some sort of puja--more plugging of ears. Finally, I sleep until 3, when the 3 yr retreatants again start playing horns and drumming damarus. Back in go the earplugs, and back to sleep until 6AM, when AGAIN with the drumming, and also, now there's an incessant tape of mantras emanating from the temple. Seriously, you all better think of what it would be like to awaken in Amitabha's Pure Realm!

So anyway, sometimes it all gets to be a bit much. But what really sent me into a sourpuss spiral last night was to be given nettles and ground maize for dinner, for there to be maggots in our bar of chocolate (brought up from Kathamndu), and for Keith to be doing a 7 day retreat which involves refusing to walk the dark 10 min. to town with me for some sustenance other than nettles (he's not leaving the grounds all week!)!! All this and you've got one sour Jenn!

Oh, I forgot to add, I have no book to read except The Words of My Perfect Teacher, I've been doing lots of Vajrasattva, and all eyes are always upon me (nuns and Nepali builders constantly staring up through our windows)!

I am surrounded by dharma dharma dharma--in the day, in the night. In every direction I look there's a monastery, a monk or a nun. All I have is dharma and my mind. There is no escape!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

In Retreat with Khenchen Namdrol

After 2 days in Pharping, visiting the caves of Guru Rinpoche and performing an 8hr Guru Tsog with Ralo Rinpoche's monks, me trying to keep up reading only in Tibetan, ringing my bell and rolling my Dharmaru we decided we should got to HH Penor Rinpoche's Vajrakilaya retreat center and see if Khenchen Namdrol was in residence. Khenchen Namdrol is one of the three most senior and realized Khenpo's (scholar) of the Palyul tradition that we practice under HH Penor Rinpoche. Khenchen Namdrol is know for his mastery of the study and practice of Vajrakilaya and the foremost teacher of the Guhyagarbha tantra (the root tantra of Nyingma Mahayoga).
We arrived at the retreat center which is on the edge of town, down a winding walkway on the endge of a hill amidst fields of yellow flowers overlooking the Pharping valley. We entered the retreat center grounds and were met by Maya the Sherpa woman who maintains the temple and attends to Khen Rinpoche. She told us that Khen Rinpoche was in retreat and not available, we told her we were students of HH Penor Rinpoche and if possible we would like to meet with Khen Rinpoche. She spoke with him and we were asked to return the following morning between 9 and 10am.
We came back the following day and Maya asked us to wait in the temple for Khen Rinpoche. As soon as we entered the temple from the fornt door Khenchen Namdrol entered from the back door, we offered three prostations and a white Katak each. We had met him briefly before in 2005 when we visited Pharping and also last summer in Upstate New York at HH Penor Rinpoche's retreat center when he had come to visit HH. We reminded him who we were and we talked for some time. I then asked him if we would be able to receive some teachings from him while we were here in Nepal. He said the time was difficult now as he was doing retreat and also working on many projects. He is currently constructing the entire Shi Tro (100 peacfula and wrathful deity) Mandala in elaborate array of statues that will be housed in a new temple. He has 3 bhutanese men living in the retreat center making the statues from clay dug right out of the ground at the retreat center. We saw some of the statues in there early stages and they were amazing, how clay/dirt had transformed into these elaborate deities with all there various ornamenations was amazing.
I then showed him my text that I received in Dzogchen Monastery and he looked it over carefully, he told me it was a very profound Dzogchen text and written by one of the great masters of the Dzogchen lineage. I asked him if he would consider explaining this text to me. He thought it over and asked me how long I would be staying in Nepal. I said we were planning to attend the Rinchen Terzod in Mindroling Monastery in November. He said that was not enough time but that the Rinchen Terzod would not be translated and that it may not be that beneficial without clear understanding of the empowerments being given only in Tibetan. He said we should consider staying here longer and hinted that he would then possibly give me this teaching.
He then asked us to come and stay at the retreat center. He asked about the practices we had received from HH Penor Rinpoche and then offered us an invitation to a teaching he will be giving in California in May. He will be teaching on one of Longchenpa's seven treasures and this particular text goes into great detail on the Dzogchen practice of Thogal. He said this teaching is closed and only those with his expressed permission will attend but that he would like to invite us to attend free of charge and that he thought it would be very beneficial for us, he thought more beneficial than attending the Rinchen Terzod which surprised me. We accepted botht the invitation to stay at the retreat center and tentatively accepted the invitation to the teaching in may depending upon time, money and unforseen factors.
The following day we moved into the retreat center and it began to sink in just what we had stumbled upon. First our living situation is ideal, we are in a newly constructed guest house inside the retreat center compound that has some 20 rooms and it is completely empty, we are the only people to ever stay in this house other than the 30 westernerns who attend Rigpa Shedra for 4 months each year. They stayed here last year before it was completely built. It has recently been finished, freshly painted and now we were staying here. We have a beautiful room that overlooks the retreat center and off into the mountains, we have a balcony to relax on and the entire rooftop. The bathroom is western with hot showers, sink, toilet etc. The living situation is nothing compared to the ideal practice environment.
I have the rooftop, where no one can see to perform my morning and evening Dzogchen practices which Khenchen has authorized me to practice on the roof. I have an entire temple for just Jenn and I to practice in, it consists of a 20 or so foot statue of Guru Rinpoche consecrated by HH Penor Rinpoche over a 3 day Puja, wall murals depicting the life of the buddha, the 8 manifestations of the Guru, the 25 disciples, the 8 Herukas , the Lama Gongdu deities, the 16 offering goddesses and the painted mandala of the 100 peacfula and wrathful deities. Here we do bodhisattva vow, lineage prayers, Guru Yoga and Shine practices, it is an incredible space and we remain undisturbed in there.
Three stories up is a complete Vajrakilaya shrine room and I am the only one who uses it. Everymorning I do my Kilaya practice for about 1 and 1/2hrs. All the offerings are perfectly arranged and replenished each morning before I arrive. The entire mandala of vajrakilaya is painted on the walls according to the Ratna Lingpa Tradition that we practice. Each deity is clearly depicted and labeled, it has improved my visualization practice tremendously. Not to mention the blessings of HH Penor Rinpoche and Khenchen Namdrols own practice in this temple and the numerous Kilaya pujas that have been performed here. In addition the retreat center is a stone's throw form Yanleshod cave where Guru Rinpoche attained enlightenment and the Asura cave where he practiced Vajrakilaya to completion.
Our Mandala of players on the stage at the retreat center is exceedingly small. There is Khenchen Namdrol who awakes at 3am to perform his daily retreat practices and emerges at 10am to discuss various projects with Tsering the office secretary. He then enters back into retreat until 6pm when he comes to the courtyard in front of the temple and is available to answer our questions and offer his insights about the retreat center, his projects, etc. Hopefully this will be the time when we will receive some teachings from him. There is Maya who is the shrine keeper and Khenchen's attendant. There is the cook who cooks us three delicious fresh meals every day and two teatime chai and biscuits. There is Lopon who teaches the Shedra students when they come and has offered me copies on mp3 of all the Shedra classes so far. There is a Nepali man who tends the garden and there are 3 Bhutanese men working on the statues. There are 7 monks in there last 2 months of 3yr reteat who are never seen and never leave the retreat house and our old lama who turn the prayer wheel constantly day and night. Thats it, so practically speaking, durring our practice day there is no one around and we just practice and take meals without distraction will all the necessary supports for each of our individual practices readily available. Only by the Grace of HH Penor Rinpoche is this possible. It is easy to practice 8+ hours a day and still have time to read Dudjom Rinpoche' Fundamentals and History of Nyingma, relax and spend quality time with Jenn. It is a paradise.
Khenchen has offered that we stay here until Dec 15th when the Shedra students arrive and take over the place, we are still deciding between remaining here in retreat or heading to the Rinchen Terzod, I am waiting for some sort of sign, if Khenchen agrees to give us some teaching we will certainly stay. For now we will just relax in this effortless retreat that his Holiness has seen fit to place us and wait for the next move to make itself evident.

Don't Be Surprised

In Pharping, when you're walking up the street and you happen to see Khenpo's shabje, Dawa Norbu (who you accompanied on a 10 day pilgrimage in a tiny van across India the last time you were in Asia three years ago).

Don't be surprised, that Puri Sherpa in the kitchen is such a wonderful cook and everything you eat is fresh and delicious. But the night before you're taking a special trip with Keith to Kathmandu for a Vajrakilaya statue, chocolate croissants, counters, soap and dinner at 3rd Eye, you find yourself hanging off the edge of your bed in the middle of the night retching into a plastic bucket for the 15th time in five hours and it's 3Am and the 3 year retreat monks are blowing horns and drumming drums and binging bells.

Or when at 10 in the morning after sleeping a few hours and walking to town with Keith for some hot Tibetan bread, you happen upon Khenpo Namdrol holding an umbrella over his head, by 2 other lamas, sitting in fine chairs next to the edge of piles of trash, performing a fire puja--with Palmo sitting directly behind them looking regal as always and holding a lit pack of incense--and Khenpo looks questioningly at you cause he told you to catch the bus first thing in the morning right after breakfast so you could get a seat. And then when you walk back by after breakfast 20 minutes later, everyone is gone, as though it was a dream. Just a small smoking pile left.

Or at the ducks happily splashing in the gutters.

And maybe you hear a strange moaning coming through the window of your room and when you walk outside for lunch, there's a young Nepali boy, the strange sound coming from his mouth, carrying a placard that explains he's missing his tongue and can't talk and please give him some money.Nad later when the grumpy nun who won't say hi to me tries to shoo him away he opens his mouth and points to the stub.

Or as you eat your breakfast of masal omelette and chai, the little girl at Sikkim restaurant dances naked around you, puffing out and pointing to her belly.

Or at the goat family marching down the road.

Or at the giant pig scratching himself on the socor goal.

Or if Chatral Rinpoche, the most elusive Dzogpachenpo drives by you as you're joking with your husband walking down the street.

Don't be surprised!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Me, Chatral Rinpoche and Several Thousand of my Closest Friends

Chatral Rinpoche is arguably the greatest living master of the Dzogchen tradition, at 96yrs old he is one the last of his generation of yogis. HH Penor Rinpoche, Chatral Rinpoche and Dodrupchen make up the very short list of completely realized masters of Dzogchen. I have always wanted to meet Chatral Rinpoche and receive some teaching from him but he is as reclusive as he is famous and meeting with him is nearly impossible. The mantra immediately issuing forth from anyone's mouth who is asked about Chatral Rinpoche is "no one sees". We have some connection with him from our previous visit to Nepal when we visited his monastery but at that time he was staying in Siliguri, India for the winter and we were not able to meet with him. Back in America we spent some time practicing with Ralo Rinpoche and I became friends with his Shabje (attendent), he told me when I come to Nepal he will introduce me to Chatral Rinpoche, he said he was very close with Chatral Rinpoche's daughter, Sarwaswati and she controlled who see and does not see Rinpoche. He said it is very difficutl to meet with him but he would be able to help.
So when we arrived in Nepal the quest was on for me to meet this incredible yogi and receive some teaching. When I arrived in Pharping I found that he was indeed staying here though not at the monastery but at a hermitage outside of town. Again I was assured by everyone I asked, "no one sees". I went to Ralo Rinpoche's monastery to see him and his Shabje but they were still in America and I had no way to be introduced to Chatral Rinpoche. We stayed at Ralo Rinpoche's monastery for a few days and soon Ralo Rinpoche arrived but unfortunately his Shabje had stayed in America and will be ther for the next 3 months. (DOOH!)
As if reading my mind and my longing to connect with Chatral Rinpoche, Ralo Rinpoche (a very old and respected ngakpa yogi) who is very close with Chatral Rinpoche reached into his bag that he had placed beside him and scooped out a few large handfuls of Mendrup. Mendrup is a sacred substances prepared according to ritual by high lamas and distributed to practitioners as a support for their practice. Mendrup is said to increase realization and meditative experience and just carrying a small amount is said to offer great protection. Mendrup is often placed in holy objects such as statues and amulets etc. HH Penor Ripoche has told us that the benefits of mendrup prepared by a great lama are inexpressible. Usually these high lamas oversee the production of the mendrup (accomplished medicine) and perform the ceremony. In this case however, the mendrup was none other than Chatral Rinpoche's and Ralo Rinpoche assured me that the mendrup he was giving us had been actually prepared by Chatral Rinpoche's own hands. I do not exagerate when I say there are many a lay Tibetan practioner who would trample over you just to get a glimpse of this, much less to actually take some of this medicine.
Ralo Rinpoche gave Jenn and I some mendrup to take then and then packaged a generous amount for us to take to support our practice. I felt our connection with Chatral Rinpoche strengthening and became hopeful we would indeed meet him. I asked Ralo Rinpoche if we might meet with Chatral Rinpoche and he casually told me where his hermitage was. I thought, "it can't be that easy". We headed off, the place where he was staying was not exactly easy to find but we managed to blindly make our way there. We saw a closed gate ahead of us and I was sure this was the place. Jenn said the gates closed forget it, I didn't care I approached the gate and it opened without resistance. I walked through and there I was inside his mandala, a small, very small temple was there and a house, there was an old monk watering plants and I walked up to him. I told him in Tibetan we were here to see Chatral Rinpoche and he acknowledged this was the place and pointed to the front door of the house. Is he here now I asked, yes he said. This was going way too well to be true.
We walked to the front door and I excitedly approached but Jenn was more hesitant and felt we were intruding, surely we were but how else will you meet with this great being. As I approached the door, before I could even knock a small boy appeared and we said we wanted to see Chatral Rinpoche, he gestured us in. As soon as we entered a woman came from around the corner and said, "yes" questioningly. Again I said we are here to see Chatral Rinpoche, and much like the line "you'll shoot your eye out kid" form A Christmas Story, she uttered the dreaded, "No one sees" (DOOH!). But at the same time she gestured for us to enter another room, inside was a white woman in Tibetan cloths, who questioned us about where we were from and who our Lama was. We told her our guru was HH Penor Rinpoche and she was surprised, the small boy returned and offered us each a banana, "a Chatral Rinpoche banana I thought" I must be becoming obsessed I thought. Then entered a Tibetan woman and she asked the white woman who we were and who our lama was. The white woman gestured for us to stand and introduced the woman as "the sublime daughter of Chatral Rinpoche, Sarwaswati". I told her we were here to see Chatral Rinpoche and wished to offer him a Katag. She looked us over and say we could not see (check and mate I thought). It was just as everyone had told me, "no one sees" and certainly no one gets teachings. A Tibetan man in town told me he had only seen Chatral Rinpoche once in his life and that was from a distance and he tried ceaslessly to meet with him. Why should I be any different I began to think. But then Sarwaswati said, Tuesday 9:30am you come here. (WHAA!)
That was just a few days away and I was gitty with excitement. On Monday the day before the meeting, we were walking back to Khenpo Namdrol's retreat center where we are staying from dinner and Jenn and I were teasing eachother and fooling around as we walked home. She was mocking me and I was mocking her and we were laughing. I was imitating her chomping on her gum and dooing a little dance, my mouth open wide and acting a fool when right then Chatral Rinpoche drove up. I frooze, mouth wide open looking like an idiot and there he was less than 2 ft away from me in traditional Nepali driving style (the closer the better). He was in the passenger seat on my side of the road, in his red wool hat, dark sunglasses and long white beard. My mind stopped, I instantly recognized him but it took time to compute and then he was gone. There it was the first in person sighting of this great Lama. I knew the next day we would see him.
On Tuesday morning when we arrived at Chatral Rinpoche's home it turned out that not only was I here to see Chatral Rinpoche but so were several thousand people. He was going to give a lung (loong) and blessing. I was not disappointed at all. Seeing Chatral Rinpoche is one thing, but receiving a teaching from his is even rarer. We took our seats right in front of where he would sit on a small balcony to give his teaching. I went to his front door and just before I knocke Sarwaswati answered, she said, "your here" I said, "yes, here is a Katag and offering for Rinpoche, can we see him" She said, "yes you can see him when he comes on the balcony, sit over there". I thanked her and we sat up close and waited. While we waited, we received many generous gifts from Chatral Rinpoche, we received more mendrup, we received a beautiful picture of Rinpoche, we received a copy of the text to keep that would be transmitted, we received a blessing cord from Chatral Rinpoche and we were offered food and drink. Behind me thousands of Tibten monks and nuns and ngakpas and lay people began to pile in. A table was arranged just in front of us for objects to be blessed by Chatral Rinpoche and I placed my new bodhi seed mala that I got near the cave where Guru Rinpoche practiced Vajrakilaya on the table to be blessed.
We waited in the hot sun, watching all the people, I had never seen anything like this except when HH Penor Rinpoche would give a large empowerment in India. After some time Chatral Rinpoche appeared and took a seat in front of us. A large group of monks made an extensive Mandala offering and we all chanted along. Chatral Rinpoche then read from the text we were given and performed the Lung (reading transmission), he read for a while then offered a few words of auspiciousness and blessing. I stared at him for the longest time, just like HH Penor Rinpoche something was entrancing about his presence and visage. His voice was deep and coarse and carried across the crowd. He stood up and looked at all the disciples gathered and wished them all happiness, he leaned over his balcony and blessed on the objects on the blessing table including my mala (prayer beeds). He then blessed the crowd of people by chanting prayers and throwing rice on our heads.
He then was gone back into his abode, I felt totatly satisfied, not only had we seen Chatral Rinpoche, we had received the Lung, we had a blessing cord, we had received some mendrup, I had the text that I could study and practice and we had a beautiful picture from him to place on our shrine. As I approached the blessing table to get my mala, a feeding frenzy had broken out, people were diving over eachother and trampling just to get a grain or two of rice that Chatral Rinpoche had thrown. I thought he had given so much but it is so rare to see this Lama and so rare to get a hold of anything he has blessed that these pilgrims were anxious to get whatever they could. I also found a small piece of rice that had fallen on my mala and ate it. I grabbed my mala and Jenn and I squeezed our way out and back to our quiet retreat center with Khenpo Namdrol.

Monday, October 13, 2008

The Sublime Saraswasti

Two mornings ago we had a whirlwind lama tour. First Keith and I met with Khenpo Namdrol in the morning. He had lots to say and also persuaded us to move to his beautiful, quiet guesthouse. Then in the afternoon we met with Ralo Rinpoche and his wife, who had just come back from the U.S. Afterwards, we walked to Chatral Rinpoche's house--finally figuring out where it was (this is in itself is a long story starting three years ago).

It was a walk by gigantic pigs in the street; a black cow nuzzling the feet of a passed out man lying in the grass on the side of the road; by goats; a small boy selling bags of bright pink cotton candy, hung from a tall pole he carried; and raw sewage flowing down the street.

After walking past his lane and then back, some Tibetans pointed us toward his gate, saying to go in. We got the go ahead from an old monk tending some plants and then from the glowing little boy who opened the front door. But as we hurriedly put our zens on, a woman came to the door saying, "No one can see." But then she told us to come in. We were all prepared with khataks in hand and were ushered into a room where a western woman in a maroon chupa sat on the floor in front of some pechas. She asked who gave us our robes and said incredulously, "Really!? Penor Rinpoche is giving out ngakpa robes!?"

Then a Tibetan woman came down the stairs holding a tea cup and looking sternly at us. "Whose disciples are these?" she asked the white woman. "This is the Sublime Saraswati, Chatral Rinpoche's daughter," the white woman said, hurriedly standing. "Tell them to come Tuesday," the stern sublime daughter said imperiously, as though we were not there. "Okay, when?" Keith chirped. The sublime daughter siad 9:30...

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Oct 10, 2008 Snowlands Restaurant, Pharping, Nepal

They sell khataks here, packets of spices and soup noodles. And all my hair is turning white. They have a fridge, and they sell glass bottles of coke.

Here, the weather is beautiful. Sunny and warm, maybe eighty degrees.

Huge ducks wade in the gutters, walk by your side to breakfast. There are black goats in gardens. Pink, purple and orange flowers everywhere. Women in saris and chupas.

And in Pharping, there is no escape from dharma, especially staying at Ralo Rinpoche's guest house.

So happy here after the noise of Kathmandu. Arriving in the dark after a taxi ride up the mountain. Today, some small children called hello to keith and I as we were walking to lunch from the bazaar. Then they ran to us, thrusting huge orange marigolds into our hands. After I took their pictures, they gave us sticks of banana gum.